So this is actually happening… This is the “real world” and my whole life is about to change. I cleaned out my locker and walked out the door for the last time. It doesn’t seem right, I spent the past 12 years in a building with teachers who were always looking out for us. Now I’m packing my life into boxes to move into a shoe-box dorm where no one knows who I am. I don’t know what to even feel at this point.
I was counting down the days until graduation because, let me tell you, senioritis is very real. I felt stuck in this repetitive routine and I was just so ready to finally close that chapter. Celebrating my accomplishments was an amazing feeling but now, a week later, it just feels different. I am still relieved to finally be done. With no assignments or deadlines, I feel free. Yet, I also feel stuck because I don’t know what happens next.
I’m scared, but can you blame me? I’ve been sheltered in my little town for my entire life and now I’m supposed to go out in the world and do something. I’m only scared because I don’t know what my future will hold. I am in complete control of my life now and I just don’t know what to expect. The unknown is nerve-wracking but only God knows the plans he has for me. All I can do is trust in the magic of new beginnings.
I’m confused because I don’t know what to do right now. I’m in that awkward stage between high school and college where you have absolutely nothing school related to do. You’d think that would be a good thing, but after so many years of being a student, you realize that being a student is all you know how to do. I don’t know how to go out with my friends without worrying about some kind of deadline.
Above all, despite the fear of the unknown, I am excited. I’m ready to leave my small town and take on a new adventure. I feel as prepared as could be to take on this “real world” because of everything I have learned in and out of school. I am excited to make a new life for myself, I’m ready to write my own story. I’m excited to finally be in control, to finally not be defined by who I once was or where I came from. While I will always remember my roots that made me who I am, it’s time to spread my wings and see who I can become.
I know that all of these feelings are relevant and okay to have. They are the same feelings that many high school graduates are feeling as well. For now, it is time to take some time to relax and reflect. Savor each moment, for these, are your last before you life completely changes. Hold your people close, for only time will tell when you will see them again. Say thank you, for everyone in your life has made you who you are. Now go out and change the world. Class of 2019: we made it!